Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Right Now, What I Want My Life To Be Like

My life is kind of blah right now. I don't like the full-time job I accepted and am glad that it's only temporary through mid-August. I've been spending every free afternoon & evening out practicing for my driving test (which I'm taking tomorrow!) and I haven't had much time to relax and see friends. My free-time has been spent laying on the couch feeling too blah to do anything. At one of my jobs, I get yelled at by my supervisor every day. It's not that I'm doing anything wrong. They're just that type of person. And they're not trying to be mean, it's just how they communicate.

I'm not the type of person to yell. I hate yelling. I like arguing, sure. I like debating, I like proving my point. I like to be heard. But I don't yell. I don't respond well to yelling, and I don't expect most other people to, either. Civilized conversations are better. Being heard because you're smart and understanding - that's how I prefer to communicate. I'm already missing my time of underemployment - spent blogging, reading, catching up with friends, working a part-time job that I absolutely love. I'm trying to make the best of things, but I'm finding myself dreaming of a different life. I'm dreaming of taking a road trip. Of not caring about making money, or fulfilling deadlines. I'm tired of having to yell to get my point across and of being yelled at simply because someone cannot talk to me like a normal human being. I just want to be around people I love, listening to music I like, talking about things that don't require yelling, and enjoying life. That's all. So here are some things that I've been dreaming about - what I want my life to be like right now.

Source: Brixton

Friends (1994 - 2004)

Source: Cindy Li

Source: Miracle Eye

My So-Called Life (1994)

Source: Unknown


  1. I'm sorry about your job. That's like my worst nightmare, right now I'm looking for employment and I'm scared that I'll accept a job that pays well and not have time to do the things I love. I'm glad yours is temporary.


    1. Yes, search carefully! And keep a close eye on company culture. Money won't matter if you're miserable all the time. Unfortunately this was a small political campaign that sort of sprung up out of no where, so those are things that would have been impossible to know ahead of time. I'm glad it's temporary too - and hopefully I'll make it through to the end!


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